Monthly Archives: August 2014

Patience

Haven’t lost a pound in two weeks.
I’m bummed. It means that I likely need to be on a ‘diet’ instead of the weight dropping off of me by virtue of eating healthy. Since sugar/flour/processed food put the weight on, I’d hoped it would be as simple as eliminating those foods to get the weight off.  I’m not giving up, but I’m beginning to think about how I just may need to count calories…or carbs. Because as we know, calories in, calories out. I think I’ll give it through September before I change anything.  My hub feels confident that I just need to be patient.  I’m not on a quick weight-loss plan.

But this is not the way of my life-long weight-loss experience. By now I’m usually getting my second (dieting) wind–feeling energized and like there’s no stopping me! But these days, it seems like I’m doing nothing at all about my weight.  And I have to say, I’m not so sure I’m feeling that much better, either.

Have you noticed I haven’t mentioned exercise? I haven’t been exercising enough. I need to figure something out. Now that I’m back to school, going to the gym is not convenient.  Getting committed to a walking regime right here at home is what I need to do. I’ve just got to get over this back-to-school hump.  I’m just exhausted.

 

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This and That and a Message from the Universe

The pace of my life is picking up.
Today was my first day back to school.
I aim to become more balanced, more positive in attitude, mindful, and less judgmental this school year. This, of course is in addition to my health goals. I was challenged twice today:  I passed on the potato chips and cookies offered at my meeting, and I nearly didn’t succeed in the judgmental department.  Well, I guess you could say I definitely did not succeed in that department, but I recognized it when I felt it, and by the end of the day, released my negative feelings. I’m feeling pretty good now, especially since I am updating my blog.

We got home from vacation late Sunday and I weighed myself Monday morning to face the music. I gained a pound. Wish I hadn’t but I’m not surprised.  There were a few indulgences over the week, but for the most part I’m pretty happy with my eating. I definitely had some of the best fish of my life, and did some hiking. I’m a bit concerned about keeping up with exercising now that I’m back to work. This summer I’ve been going to place relatively far from home to work out as it is where my son has been training this summer. It’s probably just a matter of me lacing up and hitting the pavement outside my front door.  And of course, I do have a treadmill here at home, but I really don’t like it so much. Regardless, I need to come up with something.

Had an interesting experience yesterday at Whole Foods. My son and I have had a routine this summer on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. We set out for his training and my workout, then head to Whole Foods afterwards to get fresh food for the next two days, and eat lunch there from the salad bar. As I was checking out yesterday, the cashier said to me, “You’re a good person.”  I was a bit surprised, as I thought of her as being one of the more cranky check out ladies (see how judgmental I am?!?).  “How do you know?” I asked. “Because I’ve been watching you all summer having lunch with your son.”  She continued, “And I’m psychic.  I also know you’re a hard worker.” At this point I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry.  The psychic stuff is a bit too hocus-pocus for me, but her words were speaking directly to my heart. Then she said, “But you are very emotional, so I am going to stop, but I want you to know that the happiness you seek will come. You will be surprised.” At that point (while I’m bagging and filling up my cart), I am literally fighting back the tears. We talked a bit more … about astrology, about God (yes, all of this while checking out) and I thanked her for kindness and for the twinkle in her eye.  I resisted the urge jump over the conveyor belt to hug her. Before I left, I told her how this was basically my last day of summer (she corrected me to say, “No it isn’t, you have many summers ahead of you”), and that I was feeling particularly sorry for myself on this day, and that her words meant a lot.

On the one hand, I feel pretty pathetic that the kind words of this stranger meant so much (too much?) to me.  But on the other hand, I am amazed at the ways in which the universe provides for me exactly what I need, when I need it. This ‘manifesting’ is something that seems to be happening more and more in my life.  Perhaps not, though.  Perhaps it always has, but I haven’t been quiet enough to notice. Either way, I sent a silent gratitude prayer to the universe for the little gift delivered to me by the compassionate soul behind the cash register at Whole Foods.

What about you?  What are you manifesting?

 

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A Diagnosis

Euthyroid Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis

It’s the beginning of the end for my thyroid. Granted, the end is likely a long way off, but my body is gathering up the troops (antibodies) to attack the enemy (my thyroid, and the essence of an autoimmune disease). The ‘Eu’ in Euthyroid means that my thyroid is still producing proper amounts of TSH despite elevated levels of antibodies. My endocrinologist has prescribed a low dose of synthetic thyroid, serving two purposes. The first is to (hopefully) eliminate my symptoms of lethargy, muscle and joint pain, and hair loss (eyebrows). The second is to slow down or halt the progression of Hashimoto’s. From my research, it appears that most doctors do not prescribe this synthetic hormone at this stage to the disease, however, studies are showing positive results for doing so. The presence of the antibodies is enough to throw me out of whack.

I am oh-so-hopeful that this medication will make a difference. In addition to the thyroid med, the doctor prescribed a multivitamin with iron (apparently I’m low in that as well). This morning I felt somewhat disconcerted by the handful of pills I was popping: thyroid, vitamin D, vitamin B12, and fish oil. I don’t even have the multivitamin yet. Nonetheless, the blood results show I am out of balance, and I am clearly seeking a remedy to my physical state, so I will pop these pills with a prayer everyday in the hopes I can get my vitality back.

Next in line to see the endocrinologist is my hubby.

Weight Gain
The doctor wasn’t so quick to blame my weight gain on my thyroid. More likely quitting smoking tipped the scales. I’m not so sure. She did say that the weight is not as harmful, comparatively, as the smoking. I suppose that’s something to be happy about. Regardless, gaining 50 pounds in two and a half years is stressful to my body, and an obvious source for not feeling well.

Two Pounds Down, One Pound Up
Even though I record my weight on Mondays, I usually end up weighing myself by the end of the week, making a mental note. Hence, on my ‘Numbers’ page it looks as though I lost a pound this week. What’s not apparent is that I had actually lost two pounds and gained back one! I suppose this is as good enough reason as any to stay off the scale, but as much as I’m focused on eating well, I am, of course, seeking to lose weight. Since I’m not really counting carbs and calories, I am assuming that the side effect of eating healthy will be to lose weight.  As for my new handy, dandy weight chart, I already had colored in a pound that I have since gained…here’s what the chart looks like now:

chart gain

Vacation
Friday marks the beginning of our vacation. We will be camping waaaaaaay up north for a week with some friends.  They arrive on Friday, and we will head out on Saturday, caravaning our way north. While I’m looking forward to some R&R it also means that the end of my summer is near. When we return, I have just a day before it’s back to school for me. Ho hum.

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Splash of Color

Weight Chart

Weight Chart

Created a little weight chart for myself.  I have it posted on my kitchen cabinet right where I stand when I make coffee in the morning.  Am hoping it will provide some motivation and a positive reminder of my progress.  My hub wants one too, just not so big as he wont be pulling out the watercolors when he drops weight…

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An Update

Didn’t mean to be away so long!  I returned late Wednesday night from down south, visiting my mom. I’ve become hyper-aware that my summer is almost over.  We’re headed out in a week for a last hurrah camping trip, which basically means I have a week left to myself before vacation and then school starting. If I’m ever gonna do it, I better do it now (‘It’ being myriad tasks ranging from getting passports to cleaning out closets).

Thursday started bright and early with an appointment with a naturopathic physician and functional medicine practitioner. I learned about this doctor from the website of Dr. Hyman (whom I have mentioned in a previous post, and I believe is one of the spokespeople in the film, FedUp). Do you know what functional medicine is?  I didn’t until I started up with all of this whole foods eating this summer.  Functional medicine, as I understand it, focuses on the whole body, and seeks to find the underlying causes for disease and/or lack of optimal health. The appointment lasted about 90 minutes, and I left with orders for blood tests, urine analysis and supplements (vitamin D, fish oil, and protein powder for morning shakes). The focus of our discussion was mostly about my newly diagnosed autoimmune thyroid disease. I was able to bring lab results from extensive blood work I had done just after this past Christmas, ordered by an endocrinologist. I am scheduled to meet her for the first time on the 5th. I’m curious as to how what she will say about this other doctor I’m seeing.  I’m trying to figure out if I’ve gone over the deep end, or if I’m really on the right track.  Do any of you have experience with naturopathic doctors?

This morning I woke up and felt differently. I could tell I’ve dropped some weight (overnight?!?). Did pretty well with the eating while I was gone. So I headed for the scale, mostly curious as to the accuracy of my sensitivity to losing something. Afterall, I had just weighed myself the day before. It registered at 207. Ten pounds lost since I started. (Ya-hoooo!). Not going to post it above in The Numbers page, though, as I’d like to stick to weekly weigh-ins for the record.

Read a book while I was away,  Me Before You, by JoJo Moyes. My son parked himself next to me, fascinated, as I boo-hooed my way through the last pages.  It’s a good book. A major theme of the story is the right to die. If any of you book-clubbers are looking for good read, capable of generating discussion, you may want to consider this one. There’s a sequel to it as well. Not sure I will read it though.

 

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